I didn't even realise that I still has this blog up.
It's really odd to come back and to view all the posts that I've previously put up.
It feels almost surreal that those were my thoughts, my words, my entries.

They just seem so far away.

i never got to tell you about my grades.
i don't think you'd ever get to hear of them.
you seem so different and distant.
it's hard to talk to you now when you don't even reply.

maybe i'll just write.

i was so glad to be able to be just enjoying the beauty of God's creation.

and feeling so loved all at the same time. <33

Dear Lord, I thank you for this day.
I thank You for my being able to see and to hear this morning.
I'm blessed because You are a forgiving God and an understanding God.
You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me.

Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you.
I ask now for Your forgiveness.
Please keep me safe from all danger and harm.
Help me to start this day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude.
Let me make the best of each and every day to clear my mind so that I can hear from You.

Please broaden my mind that I can accept all things.
Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over.

Let me continue to see sin through God's eyes and acknowledge it as evil.
And when I sin, let me repent, and confess with my mouth my wrongdoing, and receive the forgiveness of God.

And when this world closes in on me, let me remember Jesus' example -- to slip away and find a quiet place to pray.
It's the best response when I'm pushed beyond my limits.
I know that when I can't pray, You listen to my heart.

Continue to use me to do Your will.
Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others.
Keep me strong that I may help the weak.
Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others.

I pray for those who are lost and can't find their way.
I pray for those who are misjudged and misunderstood.
I pray for those who don't know You intimately.
I pray for those who don't believe.
But I thank you that I believe.

I believe that God changes people and God changes things.
I pray for all my brothers and sisters.
For each and every family member in their households.
I pray for peace, love and joy in their homes that they are out of debt and all their needs are met.

I pray that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than God.
Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight.
I pray that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees them and every mouth that confesses them willingly..
This is my prayer.

In Jesus' Name, Amen.

i'm totally in love with the song ziyao sent me. ((:

today was my last performance of the year.
it was interesting.

i'm going to miss all of it.






i already do.

been ages since i last posted.

sigh, time is really just flying by.
dance night is over.
(our video doesn't do justice to the fabulous dance night that we had. )): so annoying)
i was just checking the handphone number of the cell before sending them out to the leaders, and i realised how most of them have actually changed; it just reminded me of how much time has past since we had started out.
it has been one and a half years. (one year and five and a half months to be exact)
i really have grown quite attached to them.
the leaders too.

i heard news today, that just makes me sad.
inside me, i'm hoping it doesn't come to past.
really really.
I DON'T WANTTTT ):

oh well,
butter factory performance coming up.
i don't know how good it will be.
but i think i really should have some faith in the j1s.
they are going for practice more than i am. ((:
oh well.
hope things turn out well for their batch.

dance dance!

i'm getting really frustrated with the whole dance night thing.
people suddenly not wanting their tickets and what not.
people not coming for practice and bothering to tell me.
i hate this i/c job.
though i think it's just my really irritable mood surfacing every ten seconds.
because of irritating irresponsible dancers who don't bother telling me whether they won't be coming, till i hunt them down.
i'm really starting to get scared for dance night.
like really.
i'm really tired from all of this.
i can't wait for it to come; but yet, i don't want any of this to end.

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