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i felt so lost waiting in school for wenjun today.
after ten months in raffles, i still feel so lost and out of place.
i actually think i do it to myself, which is probably right.
aside from the fact that, i'm not exactly the most chatty/happy person around.
i really felt like an idiot, just sitting there.

i don't know.
will find some other things to fill my time with.

i feel like i'm making all the wrong choices.
saying all the wrong things.
not doing the right things
and just hoping i was a different person.

i don't tell you things anymore because i don't feel that need to anymore.
not the way i did before.
that few months when you were not around.
i relied on God and i guess it's becoming a habit, not that im complaining.
but now that i realise it, it just seems harder and harder to let God have everything.
aaaah.